For whatever reason, I usually do not enjoy Christmas. Not that I'm a Scrooge, or hate giving gifts, or refuse to set up a tree or anything like that. I just don't get into as much as others (like Justin) do! I think that I've always hated the stress and pressure of finding the perfect gifts, making time to make it to the post office, the work up setting up our Christmas decorations only to have the work of taking them down a few weeks later. Throw in the fact that I hate the cold and snow, and Christmas has just never been my thing.
This year has been different. I don't really know why it has been different other than Christmas is coming at a time when I need Joy! My life has been so stressful and full of disappointment that I am desperate to find Joy! Christmas is providing me joy and comfort on a daily basis. I made sure to take the time to enjoy putting up decorations instead of dreading it. I've made a commitment to leaving my laptop at school during the week so that I am not tempted to grade papers and be preoccupied with work while I'm at home. I have been trying to spread Joy to others and I've been getting Joy in return.
Today, I am finding Joy in doing last minute Christmas shopping with Zack, having a family lunch, being woken up way too early by my boys exclaiming "Mommy...it is snowing outside!" in their giddy little voices. I'm trying to find more Joy in each and every day during this Christmas season.
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